Re-Vision for Life

When I originally started this web log it was because I wanted to document not only the events in my life but the transformation of my changing perspective.  Over the course of the last two years I obviously have stepped away from the keyboard and put down my attempts to catalog or even track any of my life's events in text.  Facebook photos coupled with occasional posts will be the only witness to my last few years of life. I have however, despite my own opinion, been pretty busy.  Since I last posted I have been married and divorced, deployed once again, sold and bought several vehicles, forgotten and rediscovered different hobbies.  Yet despite all these activities there is one thing that sticks with me, I have forgotten what I set out to get in this brief chaotic life.  Perhaps I feel as though I lost my way a bit because I stopped taking time to "check the map" or record my progress.  All the same I hope to use this post to kind of make re-envision what I hope to gain in this life.

I really find myself enjoying the thought of sitting in a book store reading books yet I rarely do it.  I also really enjoy the idea of being a cyclist yet I ride maybe once or twice a month.  I actually thoroughly enjoy the pursuit of knowledge in the technical field yet I feel very much a novice in many of it's subjects.  I have romantic aspirations yet often shy away from engagements because they feel too overwhelming and full of potential failure.   This paragraph is full of the word "I" for a reason and it is because of my very singular focus on why contentment and happiness has not found me nor I it.  In approximately eight months the Marine Corps will begin it's journey in becoming a distant memory and long held dreams of returning to a college campus will materialize.  I want so badly to take time away from my career in order to rediscover what it is that I wanted in the first place.  Perhaps I will find it there, despite logic telling me to continue on in the work force immediately after my impending exit from the Corps.

Perhaps then I will sit and read more books in libraries and bookstores; cycle daily to and from activities, pursue knowledge in and out of the class room.  Perhaps is a big word, one that taunts me from afar while I sit and speculate.  For now I will prepare and await the next chapter of my life.

"A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes" -Mahatma Gandhi